1 Week

Well my Lucas left yesterday around 5:00 pm for the W.I.L.D. trip up in Canada with several others from church. I was supposed to be home by 4:30pm to see him off and say goodbye. Unfortunately, with the craziness of my job and still at a loss for sufficient coverage at the front desk, I ended up working till after 6pm and not getting home till 6:30-ish.

Major bummer.

But he left me this little note with his ring. (He didn't want something to happen to his ring while he was hiking and such, no worries.)

"I tried waiting up for you baby but I'm planning on getting in around 1-ish as of right now. I'm praying for you em and I love you so freaking much. protect my ring for me while I'm gone. Dang it em my heart is breaking right now having to leave without hugging you. I love you em, I'll talk to you soon."

You may be thinking, "it's just one week," big deal. But this is the first time we've been apart since we got married. Just when we were starting to get use to not saying goodbye, lol.

I decided yesterday that since I worked a 10+ hr day and I didn't get to say goodbye to him, I was going to treat myself a bit.

Below we have two 99-cent flatbread sandwhiches from Taco Bell, a redbox rental of "Just Go With It" (it was okay) and my own tub of B&J's Chocolate Fudge Brownie ice cream. The perfect recipe for a relaxing evening.

So I ate my food, watched my movie, indulged in my ice cream, took a nice long bath, and went to bed.

This morning and all of today has been dedicated to getting our apartment back in shape. I've been deep-cleaning and organizing all day - and now that it's the end of the day, I'm not really sure what to do with myself.

It's weird being here in the apartment all alone. It feels like I should be able to see my parents or my brothers, or run down to see Katelynn. Maybe that's because I associate not being with Lucas, to living at home with my family during our engagement when Luke was working up here in MI. This is the first time I've been without Lucas where I didn't have my family with me. Don't get me wrong, I truly do love living here and I've enjoyed having today to get caught up on stuff...I think it really only starts to hit you most when it's night time and the silence and emptiness are magnified.

So here I am sitting at our dining table polishing off my chocolate fudge ice cream, wearing Luke's T-shirt, ring, and watching a little bit of Alias season 1 (thanks to big bro & Jeana.) Church tomorrow, and it will be nice to see friends :-)

Good night to all!